I'm frustrated lately. That's all there is to it.
It's my final semester of classes and all I have is an internship left in the spring and then I'll be a college graduate. Weird.
The issue that I'm having is that it seems that there's a road block in every direction I try to go. Vail didn't work out. Iowa State said that it wasn't "PR enough" of an internship. Awesome, right? Now I'm in the line up for the Vail College Program but most of the positions offered with that are similar to the one I already tried to get approved and obviously that failed miserably.
I applied for a Disney professional internship in Florida, but I have doubts that I'll get it. Had I completed the college program when I was offered it by the company I would have a better shot. St Jude still hasn't posted that they're accepting applications for spring. I'm a little stuck. I feel like I'm simply going through the motions.
I like to have a plan. I like to know what I'm doing and what lies ahead. This point in my life is the exact opposite of what I feel comfortable with. This is fine and I can usually roll with the punches, but damn... to not even know where I'll be 3 months from now is kind of insane. It makes me anxious.
I guess I just feel a little numb lately. Issues have arisen with money, with school and my personal life and nothing really seems to phase me. These aren't small issues either. We're talking my loans for school were all out of whack for awhile. I was placed on academic probation (I'm still not exactly sure why) and personally, well, that stuff is personal. And none of it has phased me. Nothing has really got me riled up or really caring about something.
Is that a good thing?
